QUIET DESPERATION

No one can know;

I brought on this sorrow

Maybe if I was prettier

Maybe if I was stronger

Maybe if I loved him a little more.

He had a long day

Why do I feel so wrong?

Every week its the same song

“Baby I don’t know why,

I promise, I promise I’ll try.”

My friends would never look at us the same

I can no longer breathe from the pain.

It’s my fault

I brought on this latest assault.

Maybe if I loved him a little more.

Breakfast should have been hot

Lunch ready on the spot

And dinner stewing in the pot.

He has a right to act this way

Maybe I just need to pray

Ask for a change, a new day

But tomorrow brings more of the same

An unending and numbing pain

Maybe if I just loved him a little more

I am trapped in this perfect marriage

I pray my children don’t find this heritage

If only I could love more

Then I wouldn’t be so sore

Sore from the pain

And locked away by the same

It’s my fault

I brought on this assault.

Maybe one day I will love myself a little more.

Nellis